Diario de Sharons Victory, 09 ago. 18

Was feeling thoughtful this morning after the gym...(why is my mind so busy and deep after workouts!!??)

I thought to myself...everybody's reason for gaining weight is different and everyone's journey is different!

For me, gaining weight was because I viewed myself in a negative way and like magic I became what I viewed myself as...

My mother never struggled with her weight until later in life so she didn't understand why I was getting fat as a teenager...she never gave me a hard time about it or ever made me feel bad at all but she did tell me now, as an adult, that it was very scary for her to see me transform...

She told me that after my father severely hurt me and let me down in life that I began saying I was fat when I wasn't...she said I used to say it all the time...and she said the minute I started saying it every day I started slowly gaining weight! Isn't that crazy??? The power of the mind!!!

So now I'm trying to envision myself as not being a fat girl anymore....

Reimagining, redefining myself...I might just indulge myself in a little imagining daily! Wouldn't that be funny if it helped? Like...set an alarm and let myself imagine myself as this new person for 5 minutes a day!!!

I'm gonna do it :)