Diario de Rubie-sue, 17 ago. 12

What on earth am I doing? So close to a decade I have not seen in decades...and what am I doing? Yep, eating to much! We went to a potluck for the Dream Cruise last night, and yep there was cookies!! And thoes little frozen eclaires, and mini cream puffs....holy crap batman!!!! Main problem is that I went hungry, but there were lots of veggies, fruit and salad so I did have that for supper. But the sweets, thank goodness we were out by the road and the food was back in the tent, still was able to make a few trips back there to toss a cream puff in my mouth though. Damn it. Why do that have to be so good? And why do a get a since of accomplishment if I can "sneak" some before I get back to my chair? And why oh why does that little girl in me fight the next big change and/or accomplishment??? Who is she and where does she come from??? It is time for her to go home and get out of my head!!!

Another weekend away, to my couins', for a family baby shower. Luckly this time w/my new program I have been open and honest that I am on one, so they will not push stuff on me. It will also make me consious of my choices in front of them. So lets hang on and not fall off the wagon we are teetering on!!! I will make it to the next set of 10lbs and then to the next set of 10lbs and the next!! My goal to my nutritionist last week was 30lbs by my birthday in Novmember...and I will make it. So time to buckle dowwn, kick that little needy girl out, and take control!!! But dang those cream puffs were good......