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Well friends... I will not be around much anymore. With all the stress I am under I should lose weight.. as I can't eat without feeling sick. I am moving, I dont know where to, or for how long, or what I am going to do next.. but I was a "victim of a violent crime" today... (well technically yesterday since its almost 2am here). My sons dad came up behind me, wrapped his arm around my neck, and choked me so hard I literally couldn't take a breath, and couldn't speak. I thought I was going to die. I started getting dizzy. I think he probably only choked me for about 30 seconds, but it felt like minutes. He is in jail for now, but since we lived together, I am going to go stay with a friend for a while, to keep him from hurting me again. I had already told him I was going to move out, as he wanted me to. He said he didn't know why I was even there, and told me to get the fuck out. I picked up the phone, because I wanted to call my dad to see if I could come over their with Jaedon (my son) and when I picked up the phone and started walking out of the bedroom he came up behind me choking me and yelling "You wanted a reaction, here's your f***ing reaction, HOW DO YOU LIKE IT?" After I got up off the floor when he finally let go of my neck, I got up begging him not to touch me, all I wanted was to call my dad. I picked up my son, grabbed some clothes for him, and headed for the door. My ex stood in front of the door telling me that I would not leave that house with his son. He took him from me, and I ran down the stairs, made sure I had the car keys so he couldn't leave with my car and my son, and I ran down to a neighbors house and called 911. I am lost, dazed, tired, exhausted, yet cannot sleep. I don't have a job, and have no idea where to go from here. I feel like my life is shattered, and have no idea how to glue it back together. I may be without the net for a while, so if you don't hear from me, please don't worry. I will make sure that I am safe. I will miss you!
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