Diario de cheza wolf, 28 ago. 19

You are looking good. Such great curves. Happy and healthy are the two things that matter the most. How great that you got out of the relationship and found something better/  

^.^ i haven’t told people about this. The only person who knew is the one who changed my life. My family didn’t know, about any of the abuse, i was quiet because i was pushed into believing i was the problem. I didn’t have any friends that cared to listen or help and those who wanted to help, the 2 that wanted to, couldn’t since they moved away. I was alone in the fight until i met someone that wanted to keep me alive and did everything they could to obtain that goal. 

So happy you are doing so much better! 

I am so glad you're now safe and happy and loved 💘💘💘 

Thanks everyone for support and the comments. I was always afraid to tell people about what happened. I wasn't able to reach out since my phone used to be monitored or i would be tracked by gps wherever i would go. The fear was real. I was threatened every day, told i was the one causing problems, told by him and his friends that if i did call the police they would tell them i was the one being abusive, because of every lie he told other people. After i was able to get the SOB out of my house, that is in my name alone, one of his coworkers came to my house and said that my ex had tried to start a fight with his son, stole his phone and was trying to record me in my home, left 30 bags a litter in his basement, beer cans, drinking everyday, and never paid the rent to this person. He apologized for things my ex had done and said about me, believing before that i was the problem. Now that he experienced living with him himself, the coworker understood that it was much worse for me. I tried calling the police a few times after this to make reports of everything taken from my house, thousands upon thousands of dollars of electronics, which i mean isnt bad, thats replaveable. But the mental, emotional, and constant threats of harm, damage to my house from him throwing metal rods, gaming controllers, and many other heavy objects in the house in an attempy to hit me with them. The police said they couldnt do anything about it and damage is a covvil problem. They told me it was bot illegal for anything he had done to me accept the stolen property ehich they couldnt make a claim on since the original boxes were thrown away bby the abuser. Everything i had was replacable, but my credit cards were left in disrepair, they had been used without my permisuon, left with over $15,000 of debt with no way to pay them. The police said that couldnt be proven either and that i would have to dwal with that myself.  

Because of all this, i want to write a book, ut am not talented enough to write something that would sound good. I would end up crying every time i try to write anything about those 8 years. And making it sound illegible. 

Wow! 

(6) Humble yourselves, therefore, under Godʼs mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. (7) Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. (8) Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 1 peter 5 

I’m glad you are safe now.  

Wow, sorry about your last relationship. It's amazing when you meet the right person, you become comfortable in the relationship. I remember when I gained weight at the beginning of my marriage. My husband never complained about my weight either. He Said I was a happier person with weight on me...lol. My husband also loves to eat. Just watch what you eat and get back to 145, a happy 145.. 

No one needs to be sorry for things that happened. I just felt that I could actually share with more people things that have happened, and have a good outcome from places so dismal that life seemed pointless. Life is not pointless, but sometimes can, and will, feel that way at times. It’s because i found someone to support and help me through that dismal time that i was able to get out of there. Dont be afraid to ask for help, even if it is just someone over the phone to make you feel a little more safe and confident to get through something. The one i am with now did not live in the same town when we met. He helped me through a game, then we started talking on the phone, video chatting and he stayed on video call to make sure i would be safe during the time when trying to make the ex leave my property. He made sure i was still safe even afterwards, checking in with me every 20 minutes to make sure the SOB didnt try anything. After being free for a month and getting my house clean, ridding it of the garbage and ashes everywhere, cleaning everything i could. We decided to meet each other in person. After that, he moved to my town to be closer together. Im happy for everything he has done for me 

That sucks! Glad you're on the mend! 

So glad you escaped the abuse , and are now happier! 

@cheza wolf Glad you are safe. Some of the laws about abuse have changed for the good. For me it was a broken nose, black eyes and the police said "We can keep him over night and he will come home and beat you again." That was the end of the 1960's. I finally got my girls and myself out of there. You are oh so right people think you are the problem, why else would he beat you, right? My family would not help because he threatened them. But I kept trying till I made it. Now the laws have changed but it is still hard to get out alive. You look much happier. Take care and lose only for yourself and to be healthy. 

Im so thankful i never had any kids. For more than just the reason of not wanting them with the wrong person, but because of health conditions as well. 

@madfoxmade im happy to hear that you got your kids out of that. I know that what others have gone through are physically much worse than my own experience. It sickens me to hear and see others going through anything like this.