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Tomorrow is the big day. 2:30pm central time tomorrow, I will be in court... testifying against my ex boyfriend to prove to the judge that he should be charged with a felony count of strangulation. If convicted of everything they are trying to charge him with, he is facing up to 10 years in prison.
I have not yet weighed in, and since I am not really trying to lose right now, thats okay. I will measure later in the week to see if anything has changed, but I wouldnt be surprised if I have gained all around.
After court is done and over with for a while, I am going to try to get up the guts to start walking again, as I haven't been because of my irrational fears. Once I know he isn't getting out anytime soon, I will start the walking, bike riding, exercising again.
As far as following a strict diet, once I am working again, and can afford eating right, I will start again. So many things have changed in my life the last couple weeks... and I want to start changing more.
I do not want to be the girl I was. I was weak, I stayed with an abusive man, while not saying anything because I was weak. I defended him repeatedly because I was scared and weak. I was with him because I didn't feel that my "fat @$$" deserved better.
I will be thin, and strong, and beautiful. I will not take crap from anyone. I will not let people walk all over me. I will be a survivor!
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