Diario de superlizardgirl, 18 sep. 21

Change is hard to process and it makes sense to feel weird about it...I even felt like this after starting hormone therapy, which I knew I 100% wanted! It's awesome that you recognize this feeling you're having so you at least know where it's coming from. ♥️ 

More anxiety gaining and feeling trapped in my skin. Every time now I get a fat dimple with plump areas deflating a feel a part of me is being revealed. There is a way to help your brain adapt by making finger to skin contact with your body. Get in the shower and really completely soap down your whole body. The sensory feedback helps the brain learn and adjust to new measurements. 

That is a good idea. I don’t usually like “examining” myself too closely. Mostly because what I usually see isn’t that great, I guess. I’ve also started digging to the back of my bedroom closet to find the clothes I used to wear, and see if they fit. It makes me remember the old me, and makes me feel better somehow, like I’m not changing to be a complete stranger. Just getting myself back. It’s weird, I know. My brain issues. Ugh. Lol 

I have been so many different sizes this time I just want to get down to a healthy weight and stay there so that is how I look at your body will change change is good