Diario de grammycrm, 28 oct. 15

Went to doc today anti-depressant meds not working... Weight-loss (11 lbs) by Dr scales; my scales shows 4 lbs heavier so I have been using my scales to record and will continue to do so. I have been craving chocolate cake so bad.. just to shut down this crazy anxiety and pain. I promised myself if I could not get some kind of relief then I would do it.

Meanwhile, I ran into an old co-worker and we shared all the deaths we have gone through and another lady was listening, this precious lady sitting beside me said she has lost all her family (recently her husband)and most friends have moved away. As I sat there in tears I realized, yes, I have lost but their is someone that has lost more. The Dr. called her name and I gave a her big hug and said I would keep her in my prayers along with my ex co-worker. Pls keep Martha in your prayers.

I did not go buy that cake... Told the doctor and she said why do you want the cake...I said because the pain of depression is crippling Food is like a drug it shuts it down.... I have gone with out sweets and I want to bang myself up against a wall... Surprise she didn't commit me right then and there. She has changed my drugs! lol

140,2 kg Disminuído hasta ahora: 5,9 kg.    Aún para ir: 72,1 kg.    Dieta seguida: Bien.