So, basically I have been "eating right" (with Sundays off) for about a year now, with a little hiatus between Easter and June/July last year, but consistently for about the last 9 months.
It is, pretty much, my way of life now, and I'm consistent/committed to it. It's a habit, I guess, but a habit that requires concerted effort. It's still not natural to me. It's not second nature to me. It's work. But I'm accustomed to it.
I'm grateful that I am *accustomed* to this process, because it is soooo abundantly clear to me how EASY it always was for me to overeat and stuff my feelings with food and how much I *still* want to handle stress by eating.
My work isn't stressing me out so much today, but my *husband's* work is stressing me out (because he is stressed), and, well, I have teenagers, so there's a stressor right there. So, I'm sitting here at my desk (at work), and all I can think about is how much *better* I would feel if I could order in some kind of decadent goodness to be delivered to the office and feast on gooey, cheesy, greasy, carby...SOMETHING (the options are endless). And how, a little over a year ago, I would have done that without thinking twice about it. And I would have easily consumed almost 2 days worth of calories in one sitting. And then, I probably would have helped myself to something from the vending machine later on in the day.
What's interesting to me is that intellectually (in one part of my brain), I know that another part of my brain (feeling) is LYING to me. How can a bready/cheesy/greasy philly-cheese steak sandwich and fries make my stress go away? IT WOULDN'T!!! But, the "voices" are still in there telling me that said sandwich or a pizza or a homestyle double-cheeseburger with cheesy-covered tator tots would make me feel so much better! LIES!!!
The one and only thing stopping me from placing the call to order any of these things is that 1.) I'm being consistent about logging and writing down EVERYTHING I eat Monday - Saturday. 2.) I already have a pretty good idea, calorie-wise, that ALL of these things are off-limits if I don't want to exceed my limit for the day. So. I'll refrain. I will eat the sensible chicken and veggies I brought for lunch today. (I guess that's #3--being prepared.) I will NOT order anything from Wes's BBQ. Or from Jim's Razorback Pizza. Or from MoJo's or Green Submarine Gourmet Sandwiches.
I just have to wag my finger at that "feelings" side of my brain and say, "I know you *think* that eating all of that will make you feel much better, but you know it isn't true. FEEL THE FEEL and then DEAL with it...some other way." All that eating/stuffing did for you before was just to make you feel realllllly good for about 10 minutes, and then you felt guilty, crappy, disgusting, bloated, fat, tired, miserable, worse than before AND STILL STRESSED!!!
How can my intellectual-know-what-is-good-for-me self and this irrational-give-me-what-I-want-and-I-will-lie-to-myself-to-get-it self co-exist in the same brain?!?
What I NEED is to pray for/about my husband's job and my soon-to-be-grown teenagers and "let go" and "let God." And...keep logging my food, making healthy choices, and then march this folder of my old favorite restaurants-that-deliver menus over to the office shredder.
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true that's what I remind myself I'm like a carbaholic, one cookie is too many, and tens not enuff , lol. I also remind myself the pleasure of bad food is short but the misery of being too heavy goes on and on.... hang in there as we all have to.
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: blueangelica
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I wonder if I can lose weight giving myself a day or 2 cheat meals a week. Sometimes I just want a paleo pancake once in a while. Would be nice to give myself 2 treat meals a week
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: Panigale1199
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It's doubly difficult when you see people all around indulge with reckless abandon. I go a different route with it sometimes, I'll mix up a batch of brownies or a pan of cinnamon rolls and fill the house with decadent aromas, treats for my wife and daughter and I'll stick with something on my plan. It's helped me to confront the feelings and stimuli head-on and say NO, even in the face of great temptation.
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: 1point21gigawatts
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It is a daily battle - but we are winners! I argue with myself all the time and the way I manage is to ask if it is emotions I am trying to eat...if yes, I resist the urge!
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: HCB
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Take and fry up the philly steak and onions. Take a large iceberg lettuce leave, spread mayo on it and couple slices of provolone cheese, top with the steak and onion, roll up the lettuce leaves eat and enjoy. There is always a way to substitue a favorite.
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: Sweet Georgia Peaches
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Thank you for sharing this! I too battle with feelings and straight reason and intellect
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: Sundaee
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Thanks, all. I read something interesting somewhere about training new neuropathways in your brain every time you resist temptation and make healthy choices. It's a little victory. Rejoice in it. Learn to feel good about "winning" that choice battle. Every time you resist the temptation and choose something healthy, you reinforce the "good" choice, and you strengthen your ability to make good choices in the future. It's kind of like the reverse of what happens when you cave to cravings--when you receive a temporary serotonin boost (and your brain remembers that and tries to encourage you to go for that same boost again the next time you have a fat/sugar craving). Caving to cravings trains you to cave to cravings even more. Resisting the craving over and over and over again trains you to be better at resisting cravings. Or so I think I remember reading somewhere.
So, I've survived this little mental battle, and that will make me stronger the next time.
Philmck--I have oddly found that cooking things that require a lot of prep is oddly distracting/therapeutic. Especially if I'm cooking for the next day or preparing desserts or things I know I'm not going to eat. It keeps me busy. It's better than plopping down in front of the tv at the end of the day and being bombarded with fast food or pizza commercials and the desire to mindlessly eat.
Panigale1199--Sundays are my days off. I don't worry about logging, measuring, monitoring, calorie-counting. My weight loss would probably have been much faster if I hadn't indulged on Sundays for the last year or so--and boy, howdy, I do overindulge on many of them--but MENTALLY, it makes it easier for me to make it through the week. I don't have to avoid certain foods for the REST OF MY LIFE. Just until Sunday. Then, I let myself enjoy what my family enjoys.
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: dbdmom
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Funny you say that. My yoga teacher last night said everytime our body wobbles in a new position its our brain making new neuropathways for us and thats how we end up getting better at the pose cool eh?
07 abr. 16 por el miembro: Panigale1199
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