things are so tumultuous sometimes...i feel like if i had to use one word to describe my life..it would be, "tornado". recently, the stress level seems to be raised a little and i am desperately trying to adjust and just keep my head above water. it seems, between my job, my children, finances, relationship...or lack thereof....the recent breakup of a longterm relationship...all these things just make the world feel like it is crashing down..or at least on the verge. its terrible to say, but the last thing on my mind is eating right and exercising and taking care of myself. even more horrible to say is, that my only motivation, which is slight at best, which creeps from the back of my mind repeatedly, is how i should drag my butt onto the eliptical machine ....if for NO OTHER REASON, than to get my body in better shape ....and have my ex see me and think, wow! i know, ridiculous that THAT is my only real motivation to get moving at this moment..but then again...at this point, any motivation is something, right? so, on that note.....off to the machine i go!
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